Wednesday, 21 November 2012

The dry leaf..


He opened his locker and his old art book fell down.He smiled.
He opened it and found stains on the page with a dry petal.Tears welled up his eyes.He remembered.

He was a little boy looking at the world in awe with those beautiful innocent eyes.
He was a good kid having fun enjoying life to the fullest.

Holding his Grandpa's hands he planted the Mango tree.They gave it life.
He fell for it.Loved it.The glint in his eyes was not overlooked by his everyone around.
He went back home,went to bed and dreamt of luscious mangoes that night.

The next day he sat beside his best friend and told him about his dream.
Oh what fun it was!!
How exciting!!

A few days later,he woke up and saw raw mangoes hanging from the trees.
He was full of excitement.He could not hide it.
He was just so so proud.He ran to his Grandpa and boasted of his achievement.
Oh how he loved the tree.

One fine day Daddy told him they had to shift to a remote area coz he had been transferred.
He was shattered.He went and sat in the shade of his favorite tree.He cried till he was so tired that he fell asleep.
Grandpa who was staying behind promised he would take care of the tree and send him the mangoes.
He gave one last fleeting glance and left their home one fine day.

He was the quiet kind.It took him time to move on with the new life,new friends.
There was no shade of the tree.He missed the cool shade.He missed his tree house he had built.
This new house just had a little garden with little seasonal flowers blooming.No trees.No shade.He hated it.

He was reading his Grandpa's letter in the garden when suddenly a small little flower caught his eyes.
He couldn't stop himself.He went running to the flower and started fondling with it.
He remembered hearing talking to flowers make them grow faster.


He shared everything with the little flower bush.How his day went,how dad was always too busy,how mom was always cooking his favorite dish,how he missed his friends,his Grandpa,the mangoes,his tree house and his tree.

He was used to this life now.He grew up.For everyone he was a grown mature man but for the little flower bush he always was a dreamer who shared his wishes with her.

His dad was retired.They were to go back to their house.Everyone was elated and so was he.
He ran to the garden to tell the flower bush.He couldn't hide his excitement.
Their old house.Old Friends.Tree House he didn't know if he would even fit in now!
He laughed heartily..Wow he thought..Finally!!
The house was bustling with activity.Everything going haywire.They were to move out that day.

He wished all his neighbors goodbye and as habit binds one,went to the garden and suddenly his heart stopped.
He saw a little flower dying in the bush.He could not take away the flower with him.He realized he had to leave it behind.
He just could not handle it.He brushed his hands against the petals and looked away with a promise to keep her in his heart forever.
He plucked a bud and kept it in his art book. That's what the stain was..a listener to his dreams.A silent companion.A tear trickled down his cheeks.


Sunday, 11 November 2012

Helpless..

A moment its all real..and the next moment all my dreams are shattered..we stand apart..apart in our togetherness..

Wednesday, 7 November 2012

Inept for 'love'..??

Why I am so inept for 'love'..??

I got the most loving people around me..is it something I lack..Am i not able to love them enough..
Or is my concept of love entirely wrong..All i knew was there was no concept for love!!

What i do is..fall in love with the wrong person at the right time and love the perfect person in an entirely wrong time!!

All I want is to love...love you with all that I have..and I do..but when I see you are tee bit upset..it crushes me..and I want to be the only reason to bring your smile back..and sometimes when I cannot do that...I feel like a failure..I feel inept..I feel i am not even fit enough to love you..but I want to with all my heart..all my soul and all that I have..

P.S I Love You


Saturday, 3 November 2012

Wo humsafar tha..


Tarq-e-taaluqaat pe roya na tu, na main.. Lekin ke yeh kya chain se soya na tu, na main..
Jab tak bikaa na tha, to koi poochhta na tha.. Tumnay mujhe khareed kar anmol kar diya..
Who humsafar tha, magar uss say humnawaayi thi,
Ke dhoop chhaon ka alam raha, judaai na thi..

Suna hai ghair ki mehfil main tum na jaoge.. kaho to aaj sajaa loon gharib-khanay ko..
Adavaatain thi, taghaful tha, ranjishain thi magar, 
Bichhaddnay walay mein sab kuch tha, bewafai na thi..

Kaaga sab tann khaaiyo, chun chun khaiyo maas.. do naina mat khaaiyo, inhe Piya milan ki aas..
Bichhaddtay waqt un aankhon mein thi humari ghazal,
Ghazal bhi who jo kisi ko abhi sunayi na thi..

Teri soorat se nahin milti kisi ki soorat, hum jahan mein teri tasveer liye phirtay hain..
Tulsi aisi preet na kar, jaisay lambi khajoor, dhoop lagay to chhaon nahin, bookh lagay, phal door.. 
Ajeeb hoti hai raahay-sukhan bhi, dekh Naseer
Wahan bhi aa gaye jahan rasaai na thi..



Maa


Dearest Maa

Tomake aaj khub kaach theke dekhlam..protyek bochor I dekhi tomay..kintu ei bochor tomake khub kaach theke cheyechi..

Aaj dashami te tomake dekhe khub koshto peyechi..tumi chole jaabe bhebe..Tumi to Maa..You know everything..you know every dream..every hope..every wish I make..

But this time I only wish for strength to face it all..tumi thaklei paarbo..

Aaj tomar protima dekhechi..r hotath mone holo..ei din porer bochor everything will be different but I have never wished more for everything to be exactly the same..

Aaj sindoor khela dekhte khub bhalo legeche..ageo dekhechi..aaj khub kaach theke dekhlam..khub bhalo legeche r ektu koshto hoeche..janina keno..hoyto jaani..ami na janleo tumi jaano ami janiJ

Ei pujo ta khub bhalo keteche Maa..nijer moto..nijer jibon ta k jebhabe chai orokm..janina eta r pabo kina..

Shobai k bhalo rekho..

Iti
Tomar ek meye.. 

Sunday, 22 July 2012

If only..my wishes were raindrops..


If only all my wishes were granted..


Have you ever wished for something that you never in your wildest dreams thought you would wish for??..



Tonight I wish for something..i wish for us..i know its not what i should wish for..but i do..
I longingly stare at the clear sky for that one falling star..


But this longing..makes me want you more..


Suddenly I have to choose..I have to make a choice about something I have no hold upon..but this time i am not going to choose..


These feelings came as a breath of fresh air in my world..You took me to a place I never thought existed..I became me..U became you..and we lost ourselves and found us..:)


Our secret world..a world of smiles..of tears..filled with all the emotions..but so secretively only ours..


Is it possible to hold on to our little secret??
Our little world..the more I find it real the more i realize it is a figment of my imagination..
The more i live each moment the more i realize the pain it holds..
But its worth every ounce of pain..the smile meeting the salty drop of tear..


I wish no more..
Now that I realize you came to me when I never knew all along you were something I had wished for..


I can live with my 'what ifs' but bby I wish no more..U made them all come true..


That Unsaid Promise..

The movie was on..we sat beside each other..hands entwined..warmth around in that chilled cineplex..one look at each other..a hint of smile on the corner of your lips..a lovely scene was on..the leading pair was getting married in a grandeur ceremony..the hero was slipping the ring on his girl's finger..and suddenly i found a ring being slipped into my fingers..i looked at you and found that sparkling glint in your eyes..you held my hands tighter..i turned my face away..that gesture..maybe in total childish mindfulness..maybe just a spontaneous one..that gesture holds a million unspoken words..holds that unsaid promise..a promise to keep the memories alive..a promise to be there in the memories..a promise to feel the tears under the mask of smile the world sees on our faces..a promise to hold onto to us..

us...